stirring up that hot pot

this is literally going to feed into my taste buds.  i wish i had a distinct opinion about food.  since i was a child, i've been fairly open to different kinds of food.  I'd like to believe that it stems from my filipino background.  However, as I've matured and even grown accustomed to new food flavors, I must say that I'm still indifferent from different degrees of awesome.  My opinion is either - I like it or I don't and most times, I do.  Even when others may not like it, I probably add something like ketchup or hot sauce, and find reason to still finish it up.  To some this may be great in terms of planning food for a party cause then anything works but to myself, or yes some others, distinct opinion of foods sometimes makes one come off as more worldly.  Yes - this worldly attitude can be delivered and displayed in a snobbish format, but that strength in knowing precisely what makes a certain food good or bad is super cool man.  It's like debonair.  Like James Bond and 'ish.  Like most other arts, food creation is the mixture of textures, flavors, colors, and preparation.  There's a hidden strategy to it, which is why Iron Chef rocks.  I don't think I'll be going to culinary school anytime soon, but this is something I'd like to work on as I get older.  

This includes wine!  Not all of it is suppose to taste the same!

Writing thru it!

I think it's necessary to start scratching a particular itch I have.  I always have these random arse ideas of putting a show up on stage, but with so many projects on my plate, I rarely find time to hide and write.  I also feel that sometimes I need to upkeep with friends and family.  Haven't been very good with friends (which I always feel guilty for and hate knowing this) but family is always close to me (I'm just bad at uploading digital pics that I take).  With certain projects winding down and me trying to get my writing routine back into a higher platform, I think it's time to start jiving on a sketch comedy show.  Crazy, I know, I know!  But no insanity in the world makes for a bunch of robots.  

What will my show be about?  I have no clue....I've been trying to think of a common theme amongst the sketches that I've written, but find nothing.  I'm also having an interesting time with writing up new sketches.  My mind hasn't thought of sketch since recently due to an inquiry from a student doing a short film.  I wrote a sketch for him and wrote the basics of it within a day, then went through a rewrite and came up with an above average sketch.  Can I continue that wave of sketch writing?  I'd like to, but I'm in desperate need of a seed of an idea to grow upon.  

I hate this!  It's not writer's block it's more like internal perfection for what may or may not be great.  Then I always think of "what do you want to say to the world?"  Because in gist, these sketches/screenplays/essays/etc.etc. are really my voice in trying to get a message across.  So - what the hell do I want to say???  I'm not sure actually....this wishy washy feeling is killing me.  

A couple of weeks ago, I listened to a Creative Screenwriter's podcast of Charlie Kauffman (Eternal Sunshine, Being John Malkovich, etc.) and the dude asked him what he did in preparation of writing (or maybe it was a question of writer's block or rewriting) - anyhoo, Kauffman said that he did a lot of sitting around and thinking before writing.  Maybe this is what I'm doing....or at least I'd like to believe....

my bad, blogger

I must begin to write on this thing on a more consistent basis.  What's amazing to me is that I'm still writing, but I'm writing in my notebook of randomocity and in my screenplay notebook and thru creative emails.  My mind tells me to keep writing and I advise other writers to "keep writing!" but I get lazy, I get restless, and make excuses.  Writers must remember that writing is an exercise that must be upkept or else we fall victim to losing the power behind words.  I love writing and find it to really be my lifelong passion.  Sometimes I feel like I should apologize to it for letting it lie dormant or ignoring it or cheating on it with other artforms, BUT small entries like this can keep me more sane.  I have to remember this!  This post is an exercise of what should be the beginning of more.  2 words:  honesty and yes.