unload mental stability

i hate late sunday nights. maybe because work doesn't justify the creativity that urges out of my mind. from that, i don't have the necessary practice of my true love of an art. 'creative writing' is beautiful. not to sound like a mr. sensitive type, but it's very endearing and completely moving to take words (of any language) and move them into positions that can conjure up the feelings of man. with the mighty pen and marks of truth, i can make people cry, laugh, and simply think. however, my occupation doesn't take advantage of that want that i have to unload that truth. everything i write i work is uniform, justified, and support by cold facts where no room for imagination can play. i've always thought writing as an art was like answering an open ended question that can only be graded as pass or fail with the teaching being the audience member who reads. however, my job has taught me that writing can also be a mathematical equation where there is a right and a wrong that is formed by the correct terminology inserted in the correct spots otherwise the incorrect positioning can create the serious consequences when trying to pass as true. heavy thought - i know, but that absence of creativity and only practicing the mathematical equation makes for complete boredom. yeah - it's my personal opinion, but i dig it.

so sunday nights make me ponder this as i need to retreat to bed early enough to carry on the life of an "adult." can you believe that being an "adult" can be stereotypical? it's true. being an adult means drinking coffee in the morning, dressing in "work clothes" (otherwise known as 'business' or 'business casual' attire - gimmie a break....), speaking in proper etiquette terminology with words that contain more than 2 syllables, asking people "how's it going?" and answering back with "fine" without even thinking it, and continuing that cliche saying of this "grind" to "pay the bills" and making "another day another dollar" - BLA! that's an adult!

but then again, sometimes i do like being the 'adult' rather than being a kid or a "teenager." YES - did think i wouldn't speak of the other end of the spectrum by saying that being a 'teenager' can be stereotyped as well? well it can and it's actually of innocent magnitude. as an adult, we tend to forget how that teenager that we once were was innocent meaning he/she didn't know better. although very guilty of bad things, it's always just a trying time to figure out 'what the fuck is going on?' or in their language - "wtf?" so being a teenager means not having a true grasp of your feelings and having these urges that need to be embellished and spoken out, the need to either fit in or to completely stay away from everyone, the misunderstanding of parental units or authoritative figures and the cool of rebelling!, and also just the lingo to whatever is hip. the one thing that i miss about being a teenager the most is being indulged in music ALL the time. not that i can't do it now, but it actually does take time to pick up new sounds and listen to new bands or try to find new music. i just don't have the time, which is another thing that can get chaulked up under being an 'adult.'

don't forget that these are stereotypes of these age affiliated words. anyone can be anything and act in anyway, but this is how society sees these people. if that person doesn't act correct to their age, then people always have to demeanor their true opinion of the person according to the situation at hand.

there's your long awaited, new random lesson....