the way things are going - they're gonna crucify me!

SO - i have a mission this weekend, which i'm pretty confident about but
not sure if i, personally, can pull it off. it's gonna take dire
determination, imagination, and no sleep. i am presenting to myself a
challenge of my writing skills. THUS - this weekend i will bust out a
screenplay. i've been brainstorming and have characters drawn out, but
haven't written anything solid yet. so, this weekend, i will begin this
friday night and finish by sunday a draft of a screenplay. i'm destined to
write out approximately 120 pages of goodness. it's a murder mystery with
a refrain in the end. this has been lodged up in my head for awhile so i
feel like the beginning part shouldn't be difficult to get through.
however, i think the ending will be the bitch of me. i'll keep ya posted
on this one....

i'm gonna enter it into a competition that has a deadline of april 17th.
wish me luck!

tonight - coldplay concert at the united center. should be fun cause they
had a great concert in vegas. hopefully it'll be close to the same energy
if not better.

i've been on hiatus lately cause time is so crucial. i haven't even had
time to watch any good movies lately. errrrr! i want to see v for
vendetta but i have this screenplay thingy, then the asian american film
festival is in town, and coldplay tonight, etc., etc., etc.

randumb commentary: alright, so i wasn't a coldplay fan to begin with, but
their concert was very cool, so i started to dig'em. i'm not like a #1 fan
or something. i actually like bands like radiohead, white stripes, and the
beatles. i'm pretty ecclectic and can listen to anything. i know how to
appreciate things for what they're worth and can see how or why other
people might like things. SO - don't hate on me or gimmie lip for going to
a coldplay concert if you don't dig their sounds. i dig'em and they put up
a good live show - end story.

it's gettin warmer in chicago! WOO HOO!!!!

junk

i just want to say how much netflix rocks. i only signed up a month ago,
but it really does save me moola. i use to go to blockbuster at least
twice a month and rent at least 2 movies, which would add up to 10 bucks a
visit - thus 20 bucks a month. With netflix, 20 bucks a month gets you 2
movies for like 3 times a month and the bonus is no late fees whatsoever!
there's no late fees at blockbuster, but if you don't return it in a week
after the due date, you have to buy it.

i know, i know....blockbuster has this netflix thingy too, where you can go
online and do it up just like netflix. but why go with the dopleganger
when you can go with the original? and i use to think the whole mailing
thing would be a nuissance - no dice. its totally cool and small enough to
fit in our mailbox. works well.

and now i await my plug check from netflix. haha!

moving randumbly.....

i'm having like a day 2 hangover. i wasn't even plastered on saturday
night, but i guess its the way drinks are made and how many brain cells i
kill off, but i'm still minorly hurt here. it's just a headache that won't
go away. NO - it's not a migrain or "a tumor" (circa Kindergarden Cop,
where boys have penises and girls have vaginas). they say hangovers are
usually products of dehydration, but i've been drinking gallons of water
for the past 2 days. still a little hurt here. it'll pass....

ncaa brackett - you're all screwed!

baby's in black

you know how you can tell when you're starting to feel old? when the joke
"Take my wife please!" begins to be funny. some 16 yr. old kid could
understand why it would be funny, but for some reason, in my older age, I
actually laughed out loud when i heard it (recently re-watching Goodfellas
for a record 187th time). I use to watch Goodfellas religiously during
college - especially my 2nd year. I didn't have classes on fridays, so i
appointed every friday as Goodfellas friday. I must've worn that tape out
cause i watched it so many damn times. it was awesome. then, i stopped
watching it for a good while. last night, i found it "On Demand" and i was
eating, so i figure i didn't have to pay too much attention to it while i
was munching. however, i couldn't take my eyes off the television once it
got on. it was like a rebirth. that movie's so frickin awesome! STILL MY
FAVORITE MOVIE! i need to get away from watching American Beauty for
awhile. Use to be my 2nd or 3rd fav movie - now it's starting to drop in
my personal list. sorta getting beat by tupac resurrection. i swear it's
a frickin good movie and i'm not big on tupac. no joke man...no joke.

ugh...back to work.

gotta git'ya into my life, somehow someway!!

i just realized how much i miss watching conan o'brien. i saw that he's
coming to chicago in may to do some tapings. WOO HOO!! i'm gonna try my
damndest to get tickets. i saw conan live about 4 times during college.
one of my goals in life at one time was to write for conan, but dunno how
far fetched that is now. less we forget that nothing is ever too far
fetched - especially if you're trying to pursue a dream where only a
minimal amount of stars shine bright enough for all to see.

sometimes i think i write too metaphorically. sorry....just gotta try to
catch what i'm saying. sorta like my sense of humor - just gotta catch the
joke. and yes - i do push bad jokes sometimes. but who the f*ck cares -
you never know a bad joke until you try it. someone's gotta give you a
sympathy laugh.

i've lived in chicago for almost 5 years now. (well, technically i'm in
evanston now....so, i've been in chicago for 4 years, and IL for 5 years.)
i've moved around from house to house every year till this past year, when
i moved into a condo with 3 other cousins. this will be the longest i've
stayed in one spot since i lived at home with my parents and that's about 7
years ago. crazy how where you hang your hat can change so many times....

a mezzo mezzo day.

it's gettin betta all the time!!

this is something that i didn't understand till later on in life. i was
part of a fraternity and when i was an undergrad whenever I met alumni, i
did my best to make them my friend. i wanted there to be a sense of truth
behind the word "brotherhood" and i really did make an effort to get to
know this dude that i'm associated with through an organization. however,
the alumnus that i was trying to get to know always seemed too busy and it
was always difficult for him to come around. now - definitely
understandable that there are "real world, out of college" things going on
and then there are "college, i'm getting wasted tonight" things going on -
so those are the different spectrums on the board. but i never understood
why they couldn't do little things every now and then - maybe stop by 2
times a month or give a call to an undergrad to see how things are going.
HOWEVER, now that i'm an adult (or pretend to be), i can see how it gets
difficult to do those little things. here i am, trying to balance these
things on a normal basis: a 40 hour per week job, a total commute time of
2 hours a day, keeping in shape by running at least 2 or 3 times a week
(which is approx. 2 hours a gym visit), my documentary filmmaking career is
another job within itself (i email, do massive research, film gigs, write a
crap load of stuff up, read, read, and read; do marketing, networking, and
trying to make contacts anywhere i can), and to add to this whole shabang,
i need to make room for my girlfriend. Whew - try saying this whole list
under one minute. that's how i feel most of the time.

to add on to the beginning of my topic, i can see how i couldn't or maybe
might not even want to try to relate to some 18 year old kid who's worried
about how to grow funds for rush. BUT for my AKL homies - i feel your pain
brothas. you young ones - just keep on keeping on cause even though that
old alumnus f*cker won't hear me out, just keep doin your own shiet cause
in your world, grabbing your balls and doing stuff is the best example you
can set for everyone else. that's what i did and by learning my place in
the organization, things ran well for me.

NOW, up to date and in relation to today - i may be slacking in the
friendship department. it's hard. it really is. i wish i could keep up
with friends at all times and make sure everyone is always okay. but i
don't have enough time during my days. i don't have time for me sometimes
and when i push myself further to be a better person by helping others - i
really do forget to help myself. it could sound stupid but if you know me,
you could probably see me doing this. i really do try to accommodate to
everyone as much as possible and sometimes i become a d*ck because i need
to have everyone feel alright.

alright...i don't feel like writing this anymore. this is complaining that
i wouldn't want to hear from anyone...so, why should i do this to ya'll,
when i don't even wanna hear it. werd.....

savoy truffle!

you know what i like witnessing when the observee is non-suspecting?
innocence. its so cool to see someone that is important or strong and to
assume that this person is always proper, especially in a work place
environment - but then to see them outside of that persona without them
knowing it. well ....that's just sincere and it makes you appreciate that
person on a different level. BUT this could just be me and taking in the
breath of life to another extent. sometimes writing gets difficult when
you want to create this complex character because there are "rules" to
sticking with the humanity and flaw of a character. its a sense of
consistancy because audience members are more observant than what writers
give them credit for. rule of thumb for writers: write for smart people,
but then again, write to someone that has never heard of it before.
comprende vou? you want to break down a story but don't dumb it down for
people. SO going back to this character thing, and relating it to real
people - how can i be consistant when in the world we live in, people can
change in a minute. HOWEVER, just to write outloud (instead of "think
outloud"), i guess maybe the character's consistent characteristic is to
always change. (i'm trying to be cleaver by always being inconsistant on
spelling 'consistent.') ANYHOO - what initiated this thought was how i
came across the doodlings of someone at work. she's a contract specialist
and when i was going through her files, i saw this butterfly doodle snuck
in along with red penned comments of important legalized terminology. it's
like all this important stuff, and then this butterfly doodle. for the
type of person she is, you wouldn't suspect it. it has a sense of
innocence in it. that all these hardworking older folks that we can easily
get irritated with on a daily basis was at one time a young kipper that
touched imagination in their unharmed mind. unharmed by what society has
influenced them to accept as right or wrong. unharmed by bad experiences
that they may always accept to be "wrong situations," but when in fact it
could have been a one time or two time fluke. NOT that i'm saying people
cannot assume, but again i will reiterate - this might just be me. my
blog, my thoughts, my words.

moving along - were you part of a fan club? do they even do that anymore?
like the kirk cameron fan club? i guess there are more internet savvy kids
out there that just join listservs about their favorite person. what fun
is that? i would've joined the punky brewster fan club and seen how she
suffered the problems of big boobs and what she did to overcome the jugs.

NCAA!! Are y'all about the MADNESS?!?! I am and tonight I will continue
to get my fix...

p.s. i am now having a hard time thinking of beatles song titles as my
post up titles from the top of my head. i'm sure i'm missing a lot, but
MAN....this is rough...

freeee as a bird

randumb:

how long do you hang on to your parents' house keys from the time you move
out to live on your own? a year? 6 months? just give it to them when you
move out? not sure....

it's march madness time, baby! gettin the bracketts goin and i'm in about
4 pools too many. i've never won this thing and this year, i'm picking
different winners for every brackett. so come on Duke, UConn, and Texas!!
(i know, i know....i have UConn winning for 2 pools, so that's why i only
named 3 schools). have fun this thursday peoples!

you know how hard it is to plan a bachleor party without going unto a porn
site? pretty damn hard! i mean...i'm not the best man, but our best man
wants a contribuatory effort from the groom's party. thus i am helping
search for venues, liquors, and topless shot girls. however, you can never
get too raunchy without getting unto a porn website. then you get the pops
ups and then the possible viruses, and then these things automatically
install crap on your harddrive that you don't know how to uninstall, then
they setup their porn website as your homepage and next time you go to open
up explorer (or firefox or navigator if you're living in 1997...holla
rutgers!) you get all the same pop ups and computer problems. see what we
go through to satisfy a man on his last days as a single being! are
bachelorette parties any easier??

anyone wanna donate to my documentary? i'm in the middle of writing up
proposals to gain sponsorships. the downside - deadlines and when money
would actually being coming in. don't know if it would be in time with the
timeline i had in mind. we'll see.....

back to monotony....

we're sgt. peppa'z lonely hearts club band, i hope you will enjoy the show....

i am not a coffee drinker. i'm a tea person, but i'm not anti-coffee. so
i will indulge on the caffiene if i need it. right now i just had the
infamous grande caramel macchiato bla bla skim milk light whip creme
splenda bla bla. ANYHOO - good stuff, till it gets down to that last drop
that's full of caramel residue and pure shot of caffiene - yowza! i did a
little body shake after i drank it.

randumbly - isn't that wierd?? have you ever experienced that little body
shake. it's when you're body takes in or feels something that really isn't
right to its system. so it gives you a shake or warning signal. sorta
like when you cough the first time you inhale a cigerette - which i am
totally free of. thank god on my smelling system. no offense to cigerette
smokers, cause i was part of the club for about 8 years, but for the last
year i've been on and off and recently i can say right now that i have
officially quit smoking. WERD BIOTCH! no joke. now don't get me wrong -
if i'm completely hammered or tokishly grinning, i might partake in a
stick, but somehow my body does the shake and i know that its something
that i don't like. since i've been clean - geeez....smelling senses??
where the hell did you come from?? it's amazing how much i can breathe
better and smell things with acute attention. however, i will NOT become
one of these pricks that have the need to pretend cough or say something
under my breath to someone that smokes. i've been there before, so i know
what its like to be a smoker. BUT, to continue, i'm not fond of people
that think that cutting back to lights or ultra lights will help in your
cause to stop smoking. the only REAL way to do it is to either get help or
quit cold turkey. the way i see if is that your body and the habit itself
are keen to each other. in other words, when it gets together, they like
to hang out with each other for that quick fix of 5 minutes. but if you
want to quit - you're gonna have to WANT it that you will be able to do it.
don't gimmie this bull shiet about cutting back and then missing it so
badly. just keep remembering why it's bad and stay strong! SO if you tell
me you're quitting or trying to stop smoking, don't look for sympathy from
me. once you tell me you want to quit - you better not be lying to
yourself and me, cause i will question why you're smoking a cigerette if
you break one out after saying those werds. sorry - that's just me. i'm
not a mean person and i'll probably not care the first couple of times
around when you break a stick out. but after awhile, you're preaching gets
old and if you keep saying "i'm gonna quit" but don't show any changes -
i'm just gonna shake my head in disappointment. ALRIGHT - enough of this
bull shiet. happier times....

randumbly - i'm watching anything box tonight. 80's stuff. don't know
them that well, but i've been listening to them for the past week. they're
okay. i'm not that psyched, but i'm excited to go to a concert. should be
fun nonetheless.

st. patty's day is big in chicago. they turn lake michigan into a sea of
green. very cool sight. the funny part - lake michigan is naturally
green. yuck.....

i'm eating at millinium park grill today. it has the #3 best burger out of
the 10 top burgers in chicago - according to the chicago tribune. cannot
wait!

ANYHOO, have a good summer. k.i.t. b.f.f.

ya say you want a revolution, well ya know...

OKAY - so here are my post oscar thoughts:

-Crash -- good deal! it shouldn't be a surprise - if brokeback wasn't in
the running, crash would've taken the cake easily. i'm actually more happy
that haggis won for best original screenplay AND even though he was as
nervous as he was - he still had a good point in his speech that stood for
what his movie was all about.

-gimmie a break with the representation of races. yeah, yeah - so i'm
doing a film about asian americans in mainstream culture. and ya know what
- asians are thrilled that Ang Lee finally won the grand prize after
getting shot down for crouching tiger, hidden dragon (when he had also won
the prominant awards that come before the big dance). congrats to ang!
BUT 3-6 mafia wins the oscar and african americans still feel that they
weren't represented any better in that awards show. didn't you see? there
was still a breakthrough! rap has never EVER been involved with the
academy awards and not only did it get nominated and performed BUT it even
won! 3-6 mafia didn't look unhappy to me. they were totally genuine and
awesomely thrilled to win. you never see people who win get that joyful -
these guys showed on the outside how these prominant actors that win really
feel on the inside. so that's that!

-best speech of the night: george clooney. can this guy be anymore cool?
and then he was funny too. talking about being 1997 sexiest man and being
batman. then he got a little deep and talked about the la la land of
hollywood. it was very short, blunt, and had meaning behind it. cheers
georgey boy....

-nobody cried. however, it looked like phoenix was gonna lose it after
hoffman was named. you'll get another chance brotha...you're frickin good
like that.

-jon stewart was okay. nothing great. he tried to throw some political
humor into the mix and i don't think the crowd was diggin it too much. i
will say this though - he's not afraid to do what comics are suppose to do
on the oscars - say what they want. at least he carried it well. will he
host again? don't hold your breath....steve martin is still my favorite
host. sorry billy - you've just done it too many times.

-still not sure about the reese witherspoon win. deserving? gonna have to
watch walk the line again...

-didn't like the music playing in the background during speeches. sorta
annoying. it's suppose to be more of an indication to end your speech
soon. not to add more drama to it.

-lily tomlin and meryl streep. totally funny and i believe that it was
more improvised than thought out. they must said, "let's read each other's
lines" back stage before they came out. it was good stuff.

-will farrell and steve carral - also funny stuff. BUT i'm gonna have to
give the funny man award to ben stiller. great man - really funny with the
green suit!

these are my thoughts and i'm stickin to it (unless i think otherwise)....

threeee cool cats (beatles version)

i've realized that robot jokes - just might not be funny anymore. i'm
gonna have to digress....

oscars this sunday. i'm somewhat starting to lean more towards Crash
winning the grand prize instead of Brokeback. Brokeback is still a safer
bet, but Crash is such a kick ass movie. i'm not really sure. however, i
will place my money on crash getting the best original screenplay - no
doubt. i think hoffman will upset ledger for capote. i saw north country
last night - and that's the only movie i think i've seen out of the best
actress column. however, going with storylines and criteria - i'm gonna
have to go with the chick in Transamerica. NOT ms. ryan phillipe - sorry.
for supporting dude - jake gyllenhall is gonna rock it over clooney (...i'm
so wrong on this though...clooney's been getting too much hype). and for
supporting chick - rachel weisz. ang lee's gonna grab a statue for the
asian peoplez....holla! and i'm gonna go with march of the penguins in the
documentary section.

i think my picks are bad. don't lean my way if you need to place money.
however, i try to go with my own opinion, mixed with the media's. i still
lean more toward what i think is right. i'm still upset with last year's
snubs on my scorsese picks.

RANDUMBLY,

i'm busy this weekend. i'm goin with my friend to a bar tonight after
having dinner with my girlfriend after work. then tomorrow, i have a
documentary interview at 3, followed by late dinner with a groomsmen
meeting for a wedding in september, then possibly another bar event later
at night. on sunday, i have the oscars - which is a bigger event to me
than others. i'm looking more forward to this than all the other stuff
this weekend. so, its cool that its the last thing. way to end the
weekend.

sorry to sound drawn out and blan today. too much going on right now and
too much in my head....

errrrrrrrrrrrrr!