i just called to say....

you know what's true about life: the saying "Outta sight, outta mind."

When something is not always pressed against someone's memory in visual
sense, it can easily be forgotten. At first, there will be that
transitional phase where memory will be invoked to ponder a question of
one's whereabouts, but after awhile our busy bee mentality takes over to
move forward. we're always moving these days and the people that don't
keep up with us - well, they can just catch up at the next holiday
gathering. isn't that sad? i've always found myself to be the master of
gatherings. if a party was needed to get planned, i wouldn't hesitate to
make calls and write quirky emails. however, i stopped and along with that
- they stopped. and then people moved forward.

i also moved forward, but can't shake off that thinking of gathering
people. however, i stop after i've written up something on email or i
don't hit the dial button when i'm staring at a phone number in my cell
address book. i stop because i become i think, "why should I (me, myself!)
be the one to call? why can't he/she/it call me??" and then i play fight
in my head:

"cause you're better and you're interested in what he/she/it is up to...."

"but if he/she/it were interested in what YOU were doing, why didn't
he/she/it call YOU??? why is he/she/it better than you??"

"stop being selfish and see what happens...you haven't seen/heard of
he/she/it in awhile...."

"if he/she/it doesn't care, then i don't care!"

and then my fight ends and nothing productive comes from it other than i
ended where i started. and what saddens me more is hearing the words, "Man
- I haven't seen you in a LONG time? What have you been up to? Can't you
call sometime??"

Excuse me....what was that?? SO - it was acknowledged that there was an
"outta sight" citing, but the "outta mind" part continued to keep it "outta
mind." maybe it's just easier that way - that's why. why should we care?

AH- but really - why shouldN'T we care?? call someone up and tell'em you
love'em.....

senior-itis

Here's my little rant for today: (I should just rename my blog - Little
Rant 101)

I went to the gym last night and after my run I wanted to do either
crunches or work on my back. When I walked to the crunch benches - they
were all taken, so I moved to the thing to work on your back (it's like a
diagonal gymnastics horse), but alas - they were all taken too! So I
waited for the back thing and stood there for awhile. And NOW MY RANT: a
theme that I'm starting to see is senior citizens or elderly people to take
that status for granted. Now don't get me wrong - I love'em old folks and
dearly enjoy listening to the "old days" of how things use to be better.
Hell - I'm getting there myself and have been telling those type of stories
(it just sounds weird cause it's about the 80's). But lately I've seen
these elderly people KNOW they can't move as quick but aren't considerate
of younger people. In relation to my workout - an elderly lady was using
the back bench and i stood there and let her go at it for about 15 minutes.
you know what i saw - she would do 3 reps - stop - stand around - look
around - and then sit on the bench for like 2 minutes before she did
another 3 and then all that crap all over again! She was on that thing for
30 minutes and probably only did 15 total reps. I think what annoyed me
more was that she knew I was waiting. Thank god another one opened up for
me to use. I was so pissed, I did my 5 sets of 20 in like 5 minutes.

Another occasion - my gf and I were on the bus on the way home and it
wasn't sincerely packed. I know the front of the bus is reserved for
senior citizens and handicapped people, but obviously some people just like
to sit at the front of the bus. We were watching as these two elderly
ladies, who were walking fine, came on board and looked at these 2 younger
girls sitting at the front. "The leader" of this elderly couple of ladies
said to these girls "we're seniors..." In my head, that meant, "i'm old -
get the f*ck outta my seat!" and the way she said it, I wouldn't be
surprised if that's what she meant. Now that's takin the 'senior citizens'
status for granted!

I'm no old person hater, so don't label me as uncaring or unsympathizing.
However, I am an observer of courtesy amongst people and some people just
take their status for granted.

SIDENOTE: my wisdom tooth needs to get pulled....i'm hurting over
here.....

a can of coke

i don't understand the people that need to announce everything they do
before they do it. And to follow - I don't understand the people that
reinforce the notion with supportive words to such a menial task. For
example - "I'm gonna go buy myself a can of coke." Followed by - "Way to
quench that thirst!" Sometimes I think the people that say these things
are saying it to just listen to themselves speak. However - I do digress
because I am guilty of the momentary bathroom break announcements that
overshares what actions will take place in the confines of "the moonhouse."
But I've been better at this since I've turned 21 (7 years ago).

Maybe I'm just bitter at the people that feel that this type of dialogue is
necessary for a more open environment. It sets ease and comfort to
everyone around so that no one is suddenly surprised that this person
appears out of nowhere with a coke. "HEY! Where'd you get that coke and
why didn't you say anything?!"

"i just broke up & i don't know if i should share or not"

i never know what to say to another dude when he's just in passing, but he
drops a quick overshare of his relationship status. Like I just went to
buy a bottle of water and a guy from work who's on "work aquaintance" level
had to say, "Well, I'm single now. So that's okay." After all I said was,
"Hey - how's it going?"

Now w/insight like that, he's sorta opening up to me but in another way,
he's also releasing some feeling. Sorta like the balloon metaphor for when
guys hold in feelings for too long. He can either let out little bits
along the way or he can let it all blow out in one big release. Then he
got into it a little bit more, "But everything's okay, everything's okay."
This can be read as, "if i keep saying this, I'll believe it and yes,
everything will be okay."

I felt for him, so I tried to humor him by relating. I tried to make him
truly feel okay w/relating situations. I said, "Well, I'm still in a
relationship, so you're pretty lucky. We're in the comfort zone, so it's a
bit troubling." However, what I said was a little white lie cause it's not
troubling and my relationship is actually pretty good since I'm completely
random and find comfort uncomfortable. The good thing was that he smirked
and hopefully it made him feel just a pinch better.

SEE - guy's have feelings too!