[this one's for john! we were born on the same day for a reason brother.
i truly believe it. "You may say I'm a dreamer. Well I'm not the only one.
I hope someday you'll join us. And the world will live as one!" Thank you
for inspiring me Mr. Lennon.....]
i just can't keep going on like this anymore. i just can't do it. I can
no longer give people a humorous laugh for the sake of laughing when it
just isn't funny. I'm sorry...it's just gonna have to be like this from
now on. And people that do know me...I already laugh at anything...but
like 10 minutes ago, I had to laugh at people trying to push jokes unto me
that weren't funny. and the reason for my "OH I'll just humor you" laugh
was the fact that they're my superiors. now i don't mind it....cause i'm
sure everyone does the same thing...AND you know you do! don't lie!
however, i always go through that afterthought where i sit at my desk and
think "geez...what just happened?" it replays in my mind but in fast
forward, quickly going over dialogue that might've been intriguing and
interestingly enough to record, otherwise erased to have space for more
important/interesting dialogue. Mind of a "writer" i guess. don't talk to
me if you don't want to get recorded...i remember a lot of a random shiet.
Going back to the laughter - is it rude to just stare and say, "can you
stop pushing that joke?" Don't get me wrong...i've already done this in
the past but with friends who i'm allowed to say it to. so my question is
if its rude to say it to mild acquaintances or strangers.
well....hhmmmm....you shouldn't care about strangers unless you think
you're gonna move them unto the mild acquaintance level. so i guess it's
just about the people that you sorta know but not really. why would it
care? cause maybe some of us are on this quest to be the "perfect" person
and not have any enemies, only to hopefully be concluded as one of the
"popular" people. are we really just hunting to have more people give us
christmas presents...or a very morbid thought....more people to attend our
funeral? interesting, no? SO PLEASE....PLEASE.....just don't tell me dumb
jokes people. i will stare at you and say, "did you want to go to my
funeral? cause with a joke like that....you're so uninvited!"
that's another thought! can i start inviting people to my funeral? i
mean...in a way...it IS MY PARTY! i should be able to invite who i want
and who i don't want. i don't want people there for the sake of "well, it
looks good cause we were best friends in 4th grade." gimmie a break! i'm
starting to write my guest list up now....
email me if you want to be invited! i'll consider it...haha!
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