getting better all the time

my TMJ frickin hurts like crazy today. i dunno what aggrevates it, but i
was reading up on it and stress is one of them. stress is like enemy
numero uno for your whole body. it never ceases to amaze me at how people
change when they're under an incredible amount of stress. it's like this
pressurized situation where any move is the wrong move and no matter what,
the intensity level is times 30 (....yes, times 30....i picked that number
cause it sounds like a lot, but not too much).

i' m gonna talk about That Asian Thing project personally. on the Asian
Thing blog, i like to keep it all business with thought provoking points of
view that i come across as i progress. however, i haven't really thrown in
too much of my feelings. and so, i'll do a bit of that right now. what's
been the most difficult since this project has started is getting crucial
interviews with the right people. i'm actually pretty psyched to sit down
with the Pacifics this sunday. however, i'm tryin to get some bigger names
like rev. jesse jackson, margaret cho, and apl.d.ap (from Black Eyed Peas).
But it's pretty rough to 1.)get in contact 2.)make my project sound
appealing to them 3.)not be able to pay them in anyway and 4.)get to
wherever they're at if they're not in chicago. I'm optomistic
though....i'm in the beginnings of this project and if i give up now, i'm
this naysaying little b*tch that should give up on any sort of dream to do
film. HOWEVER, that ain't me and i ain't goin out like that! THIS IS IT!
i've sent out numerous emails and i will prove to people that have no faith
of my powers. just gotta open doors with the jaws of life -- jiggy boy
styles!

i just need to vent a little. this cold weather is making me turn into a
werewolf. getting a little bit lazier with goin to the gym. staying up
way too late at night working on this project. but when i think about
it....the determinating factor is what makes me keep on going. i WANT this
to be the best damn documentary and stage production to shout louder than
all asian americans put together. time is so important when i think about
it too.

AH...before i leave -- note: the white sox are the world series champs.
unbelievable. the town is wierd and psyched to have baseball champs. but
not for nuttin...i think it would've been crazier if the cubbies won it.
there's way more cubs fans than sox fans. not that i've been to every nook
and cranny in chicago, but i do work downtown, which is the middle of the
windy metropolitan. i just see and hear more cubs fans. i'm sure there
are more sox fans now though....

halloween is coming soon. are you scared?