the latter

some thoughts:

-what wrong w/me liking justin timberlake's music? okay - the gay part of
it is that he was part of n'sync and he's like the national coverboy for
bebop/tiger-beat magazine. however, if you break down the aesthetics of
his last album, he worked with a major hip hop music producer - timbaland.
his work is somewhat parallel to michael jackson of the 70's/early 80's
(off the wall, thriller) which are by far the best albums and i believe is
still the biggest selling album ever. and the shiet is danceable, chill,
and pushes further than his boy band period. all i'm sayin is that -
sometimes you shouldn't have to play into your mind what other people think
about your likes and dislikes. if you like justin, a past american idol
winner, or any reality television show - f*ck it....admit it and let it be
your guilty pleasure, BUT don't rag on somebody for having the taste that
they have. respect opinions man.....

-how much should you play into your decisions based on "feeling bad?"
sometimes it's annoying when people "feel bad" about not doing or doing
something that someone else would find offensive or rude. gimmie a frickin
break! so for the most part - things depend on the situation - and to this
I do consider weighing options and yes, "feeling bad" can play a role.
however, when you come to two ill advisable paths or moments of confusion
where nothing seems to be correct no matter which way you go - well, f*ck
it! just choose what you WANT to do! seriously! if friends are friends,
they should understand your choice and no - you should not have to feel
like you're sneaking behind them with your choice nor should you have to
lie for the sake of looking like a bad guy. again - i do consider weighing
the option of playing to the situation at hand - whereas circumstances
could mean that lying is a safe way to avoid non-needed confrontation or
future awkward moments. but in a magical world where no there is no
polical correctness and being blunt is actually speaking the real truth
instead of beating around an invisible bush - then you should just do what
you want to do in life without having to take into consideration of
"feeling bad."

and yes - that magical world does have a bad side where i'm fat, bald, have
bad skin, and am a bad writer (cause everyone's blunt). but you know what
- if people told me this in a blunt way a long time ago, my problems may be
being vain and acting like an over perfectionist hhmmm.....which ones are
worse traits?

oscars are coming? who do you think is winning?

what we do for electronics!

LOS ANGELES (Reuters) - A California radio station has fired 10 staff
members after a contest to drink as much water as possible to win a new
Nintendo Wii game console resulted in a woman's death, a company spokesman
said on Wednesday.

Jennifer Strange, 28, a mother of three, died from water intoxication after
taking part in a "Hold your wee for a Wii" competition on a morning radio
show on Sacramento station KDND-FM Friday.

She was one of about 20 contestants who tried to outdrink each other
without going to the toilet and was reported to have drunk about seven
quarts (6-1/2 liters) of water in a bid to win the Wii for her children.
She was the runner-up.

dreamweaver

you know what trips me out sometimes? when you're having a bad day but
still say or write in an email - "have a great day!"

i always thought it was natural instinct to wish badful ventures to someone
when you're having a bad day, so you can at least feel better than someone.
(sarcastic thought)

so in good fashion of a wannabe screenplay writer/filmmaker, i watched the
golden globes last night. anyone else see this? anyone think brad and
angelina had a little spat in the limo before getting unto the red carpet?
angelina looked sorta pissy. maybe she misses that good billy bob lovin
pre-red carpet. brad seems to be more conservative in that fashion.
probably cause billy boy knew he couldn't get anyone that hot again.

i'd like to give big ups to my idol - the filmmakers filmmaker - marty
scorsese. the man's a genius and has yet to get his hands on that baby
oscar. with this golden globe win and in comparison to the frontrunner for
babel....his chances are way higher than the past couple of years. my only
vice is that dirty harry is still playing the strong cards. i'm tellin ya
- if you told me after watching clint eastwood work it with a chimpanzee in
the 80's that he would go on to be this award winning director - i'd ask
you where you got those air jordan's and how much you're sellin your crack
for....cause seriously, in the past couple of years, that man came outta
nowhere.

warren got his hands on the cecil b. award last night. my only comment -
why? no offense - i think the dude's cool and he did have his moments, but
seriously, i think y'all gave it up to him cause he's been outta the game
for a long time and y'all wanted an upright citizen to give the award to.
warren even said in his speech that he hasn't been in that many films and
it really is true. the handful of films that were featured last night
were probably all the ones that he's made. there's probably been 20 films
total in a career span of over 30 years. maybe it is quality over
quantity, but the guy isn't dead...maybe it should've gone to someone else
more deserving during a time period that movie making has been in a low.
even this year's oscar race seems somewhat weaker as past years. but with
this award show becoming history....watch...you'll see the hype by all the
movies. it's like waterworks when the corporation takes control now.

i can venture to say that dreamgirls will pick up some extra viewing this
weekend. this movie will definitely put eddie murphey back on the map that
he lost awhile back. he's been playin it safe with all those kiddie
movies, but nothing has returned to him since coming to america. hopefully
this'll be his ticket to better written roles.

this is all......

in other news....

WASHINGTON (Reuters) - Unbowed by public doubts, President George W. Bush
plans to announce on Wednesday that he will send about 20,000 more U.S.
troops to Iraq as part of a long-delayed shift in strategy in the unpopular
war. Bush's plan may represent his last best chance to salvage the U.S.
mission in Iraq and turn around frustration with his handling of the war.
Administration officials said Bush will announce plans to deploy about
20,000 more U.S. troops to join 140,000 already in Iraq -- most to Baghdad
and 4,000 to volatile Anbar province.

AND

Many of Bush's own Republicans expressed unease and a USA Today/Gallup poll
said Americans oppose the idea of increasing troop levels in Iraq by 61
percent to 36 percent.

ME THINKS:

are you kidding me dude?? Here's a common theme from the documentary
aspect of cinema. From all the documentaries that I've watched for the
past year (fahrenheit 9/11, who killed the electric car, when the leeves
broke, enron: the smartest guys in the room, etc., etc.) the common theme
all have to do with how bush is f*ckin up. NOW - whether you're a donkey
or an elephant - you gotta admit that this war thing is going just a bit
too far and we need those kids back here. it's reported that 3,000 lives
have already been sacrificed in that relived vietnam fight. is there even
an answer to this long debate? come on man....think for a little bit about
what's going on here and listen to the people. we're a democracy - aren't
we?

IN OTHER THOUGHTS (non-political):

let's talk about sports. mcgwire doesn't make it into the baseball hall of
fame because of the steroid era?? gimmie a break....it's the past already.
work toward making the future better! don't hinder the people that
might've or might not have f*cked up in the past. let me tell you
something about that specific time in social culture when baseball watchers
and non-baseball watchers were on their toes everytime sammy sosa and mark
mcgwire were at the plate. i would be watching a television show and the
network would do picture-in-picture to show their specific up at the plate.
it was an unreal time. and when either one of them smacked it outta there,
it was unreal! bars would go crazy and jaws would drop on how far that
shiet would go. they picked up baseball to another degree where i've never
seen it. and yes, steroids was at question even at that time....but they
did something for baseball back then and when you think about it, they're
really harming themselves for doing it.

i dunno - maybe i'm just a softy and maybe i thought they did something
great for the culture of baseball, but don't deny the guy from getting into
the baseball hall of fame. didn't you let pete rose in there for
gambling?? this is just my opinion and that's that.....

those were the days

you know what i don't get about regular joe movie watchers? these days,
they're so ready to critique a film - saying whether it's good or bad and
if it's worth their money - instead of trying to understand what the
director or the writer is saying. before films, there was television and
even before that there were these things called books. and wouldn't you
know it - those things called books held stories. words on pages that
people read to try and learn something that someone was saying. AMAZING!
now - people take the cgi graphics and vast technology for granted to only
say what's good or bad without walking away with the barebones of what a
movie is trying to say. hey - even the bad movies have cliche lines and
trite situations that are still trying to tell you what's good and bad in
the world. the more sad part is that if i were to write up a movie about
what i'm saying, it'd be too cliche. a movie about a screenplay writer
trying to figure out what movie goers like and dislike....every first
screenplay writers fallback. too bad none of them were ever that great....

uh....maybe except Adaptation with Nic Cage and written by Charlie Kaufman.
Check it out.

that's my rant for today......(well, at least on here...)

where are y'all??

ugh - i have a lot of anger in me lately. don't know why, just do.

sometimes i can't take "stupid people." now don't get me wrong, i do have
tolerance and patience for people and i must say that it is at a very high
mark to which i can deal with most. however, sometimes you know someone
for so long that you know what they're capable of and what they're not
capable of. what i'm starting to pick up on about some that is starting to
annoy me is how people will use their "innocence" for granted.

initiative people!! a lot of times in life, you just need to grab the bull
by the horns and run with it. take a chance and make some executive
decisions. do NOT always ask questions and seek approval of everyone.
again, don't get me wrong, as there are times where unanimous consent is
needed or feedback is in order so that improvement can help move forward.
BUT our world is mixed up with people that either don't give you any
valuable input OR push your thoughts away while waiting for something
better to come along. that right there is when you move it along yourself.
all you baby!

it gets super-duper annoying when you know someone is capable of making an
executive decision in a situation, but is not firm, has no spine, and a lot
of talk is what it is - a lot of talk!

i guess i'm just looking for some substance around me......

drunk

I'm not sure how this happens, but sometimes it does. You ever wake up
still being drunk? I went drinkin last night and got to bed drunk (not
sloppy, hammered, and vomiting but kindly buzzed with moments of
unnecessary laughter) then I woke up to get ready for work. Came into work
and now it's about 3 hours since I woke up....but yeah....still
light-headed and can't walk that straight. I could really use a nap and
all I want to drink is water. This is really wierd....

takin' a break from all your worries, sure would help alot

after installing at least 5 viewing times of the Christmas Story on TBS, an
extra 2 hours a night after work for last minute Christmas shopping 4 days
before the eve event, and listening to non-stop Christmas music 1 week
before the big day......STILL, STILL I TELL YOU - there's no sense of
Christmas nostalgia in me. It's not like I dislike the event nor am I a
scrooge about giving people presents, but for me....the vibe has
disappeared. Did it really snow on Christmas eve just 4 years ago that
made it seem so magical and now due to global warming all I can do is hope
that it doesn't rain?? Do i neeeeed to have children in order to reassure
myself that i'm not some cold-blooded individual that has no sense of
feeling and thrive off of living vicariously through them?? is this just
another ongoing indication that i'm growing old and my mid-life crisis is
going to be pure hell if I feel like this now?

SO i had an idea, an epiphany, a metaphoric light bulb that's suppose to
symbolize that my mind still works! while being in the midst of filming my
documentary
(ahem....plug...*cough*.....http://www.thatasianthing.com....ahem! *cough*)
and in the words of Rocky Balboa (from the movie, "Rocky Balboa") - "I
still got stuff in the basement," - meaning that i'm still flowing with
that sweet adrenaline juice - i thought of this idea to make a
Santa-mentary. NOW i'm not sure if i'd want to do this, but i think it's a
good idea. So the premise is much like a product of M. Night's Signs and
the almost forgotten independent hit, Blair Witch Project. I guess it
would be about people trying to find the truth behind Santa. they would
travel to Antarctica and walk many, many miles in the freezing cold to get
to wherever the North Pole is supposedly located. after walking through
the freezing snow, they pass out and this is where it turns into something
like Signs - these midgets come and rescue them. Elves man! Elves!!

I would think it would not be children appropriate as it would be pretty
scary, trippy, and surreal. ALSO - i don't think you ever actually see
Santa throughout the whole ordeal. I think silhouettes, shadows, and quick
images of him throughout the flick would be cool. this is completely in
documentary format. i envision the beginning being this press conference
held by state officials about receiving classified footage that was sent to
them anonymously from the Antarctica. maybe it was held by the FBI during
the 80's and only now is being released (sorta like the John Lennon files
this past week).

It's just an idea to bring hype back into Christmas. It could work. And
no - this wouldn't be a comedy...it'd be like the Blair Witch - a fictional
documentary. WE'LL SEE....

moving right along - the overhyped event of new year's eve is approaching.
time to either be bored with your family or waste 200 bucks (entrance fee
for open bar & grub w/cab fare) on a forgotten drunken night. joy to the
world! be safe people and as always - wish for world peace!

thoughts

sometimes i think comedy is really who can annoy who the most. if my
theory is right, the whole world is pretty hilarious. HA!

10 year high school reunions are worth the 2 minutes right before you're
about to walk into it. every emotion that you've felt from graduating high
school to that very minute resurges. your mentality is completely confused
and you feel like laughing, pissing, throwing up, and gizzing in your pants
all at once. it all makes you want to turn around and not go back. the
open bar is worth it if you take advantage of it.

boredom for me results into unnecessary productivity. instead of doing
real work that needs to be done, i start work that i've never thought of.
3 days out of work and no plans has made me learn to stitch, fix a stereo
using a nail cutter, and all the new dance moves on that MTV.

work always continues whether you're there or not. the only thing that you
missed out on was the results of reality television shows that coworkers
are obsessed about.

updating my 401k and all my insurance plans makes me feel old.

sitting up straight can mask your obesity.

thanks for listening.

kriss kross make ya wanna jump

i hate being the messenger! Why is everyone so damn scared of a little
confrontation?? OKAY, okay....I will say that I am guilty of not starting
beef - HOWEVER, what I do hate is becoming the mediator when someone is too
scared to say how they feel. What upsets me more is when it's between 2
people that know each other very, very well and I would venture to say that
no matter the outcome, status of friendship would probably stay intact.
Then speak your frickin mind, man!

Continuing with that, is it me or has there been a huge upscale rise in
spam emails?? How did they find us?!?!? How do these people get paid and
why are they out there? Because their spam emails about viagra are just as
dangerous as a hacker throwing you a virus. You click on that email and
open up any attachments just cause you think you can get a discount of
p*nis erection longevity and then you're screwed. HA - i guess literally
if it really is about p*nis erection longevity. SPAM GUYS - give it up
man. Stop tricking the 12 year old boys about what's more important in
relationships with women.

Transitioning from that - just love your women, man. Treat them with the
utmost respect and if you feel like something is missing, something is
wrong, or something isn't working in the relationship....just hit the reset
in your head and remember why you fell in love. Mental chaos is difficult
to overcome and the stronger ones are the ones who can make it work. And
remember - just don't become the messenger.....

democrats

to whom it may concern,

to whom it may concern - how are you? what have you been up to?

to whom it may concern - narrow and pessimistic point of view to follow.
it's all really a crock full of sh*t and everyone seems so frickin fake.
gimmie some daylight and a room full of straight people that have the
mentality of stereotypical flamboyant homosexuals (...that's cause they're
the only people that speak their minds with no disregard). if we lived in
a better world, i wouldn't need to hold back from telling a person how to
parent their child. if we lived in a better world, i wouldn't have to hold
back from telling anyone that interrupts me that I haven't finished my
thought yet. If we lived in a better world, there would be gizmos and
gadgets that can give evaluations for what you're worth to human society
and place you in the correct job through your wants and needs. God forbid
that you go along with the grain and stay stuck in a job that "just pays
the bills" or is "something to do."

to whom it may concern - WAKE UP, the sleeping people and get them out of
their shells. Let them live lives that push evolution and make multiple
memory books that turn into history books. Stand with objectivity to
figure out what is wrong and DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! Stop complaining with
words that have no substance because saying "this sucks" or "i wish"
doesn't move anyones feet.

to whom it may concern - get us out of this commercial break and let us
watch better stories. cut the fat and serve the meat cause what we need is
life.

to whom it may concern - i'm tired and i know others are too. are you
tired?

to whom it may concern - write back when you can! see you in september!
have a great summer!

VOTE!

I just wanted to take this opportunity to tell anyone out there reading
this - PLEASE GO OUT & VOTE ON TUESDAY,NOV. 7th!!

I'm not going to tell you how to which way to vote, but I will tell you my
personal knowledge as a novice political activist. When I first came out
of college 5 years ago, my only thoughts of politics were that Bush was bad
and war stinks. Present day - not much has changed. But whatever -
Republican or Democratic, the following is more of a push on voting. I
just wanted to reiterate that I didn't know much coming out of college.
Today, I'm more involved with my surroundings and the society around me.
Not to say that it's because of maturity, but because our voting really
does trinkle down to us personally. You may not think that 1 out of a
jillion can do much...but dag nab it, IT DOES!

Things like health care, the economy, and environmental issues all play a
role by the way votes are counted. These are the basics people! There are
laws passed and the people that vote on these laws are the people that we
vote for because we believe in their vision of what is good and bad. We
like the way they think and we want them to represent us because we believe
that he/she will do a good job of taking care of our needs. Coming out of
college, you may not be so aware because (like me personally) you probably
want to get your own situation settled in. A secure job that you like with
benefits and the right distance for commute. The pay needs to be able to
help you clear off some of that debt and be able to give you loot to party
with. WELL - see right there! Those common things are carried out and
controlled by our voting. Jobs= economy, benefits=health care, and even
socially activity is equal to the little laws of where bars are built,
smoking or non-smoking, and security w/liquor licenses. There's so much
behind everything we do that in order to make sure every bit of it runs
smoothly, we need to have smart people that go out and ROCK THE VOTE.

SO PLEASE - GO OUT AND VOTE!! EVERY BIT COUNTS!

go and google your county's voting info. Thanks..........

a gala apple

BERLIN (Reuters) - A 59-year-old German man who has spent the last 34 years
in jail has turned down offers to be let out, an official said Saturday.

"He rejected an offer to leave in 1992," Thomas Melzer, a spokesman for the
Brandenburg state justice ministry, told Bild newspaper. "We can't do
anything if someone sentenced to life in prison doesn't want to leave."

The man, identified only as Gerold H, was convicted of murder and sentenced
to life imprisonment in 1972 when the area was part of communist East
Germany.

German prisoners have no obligation to agree to leave jail before their
sentences have been completed.

BLOG NOTE: SO - this is pretty interesting. Any thoughts as to why he
won't come back to the outside world? Maybe he knows how f*cked up it can
be and doesn't want to deal with all the hustle and bussle of "surviving."
Maybe, like in my previous post, he's found content in staying where he is
and molding his mind to be a machine. He's probably not ready just yet and
needs a couple of more years before he can implement his plan to take over
the world. You never know what these inmates are thinking while cooped up
in the joint and all they have are these books and their minds. I'd
probably have 3 screenplays written out if I were in jail for the past 5
years. (i say only 3 cause those would only be the well-written ones as
opposed to the 20 or 30 half-written or poorly written ones that i started
along the way.) Maybe he's scared to know what's going on with the world
and his mind is too weak to conform to today's culture. It always seems to
be a shell shock even when you travel to another country. Maybe he feels
really guilty and knows that no form of punishment can truly cleanse his
sin. He's not one to committ suicide, so he waits till the lord takes him
away. Sometimes those jail birds can get freaky religious on ya.

What would you do if you've been in jail for at least 30 years and are
allowed to leave? And if you did leave, how would you get back into the
swing of things? Interesting......no?

questionnaires

what happens to a man when he seems to be content?

isn't our life long goal to actually reach a state of happiness? well -
what if our constant desire is to never be satisfied? doesn't that make us
stop what we're doing in life? in other words - if man actually did reach
a sense of satisfaction, then what the hell does he do for the rest of his
life? does he keep on doing whatever routine he's kept on doing for the
past 10 years to blind him of happiness? now don't get me wrong - if
someone tells me that he/she is completely happy and nothing is wrong with
his/her personal world, who am I to rain on anyone's parade? might as well
make the best of it and say "happy birthday" or "merry christmas" everyday!
however, our society is only recently waking up to becoming more
pro-active. there was a stink not long ago when culture was more dingy and
not caring....but it's wierd because it was cool to be like that. NOW -
its become more action packed and non-stop multi-tasking. it's cool to
have your computer and television on at the same time while texting someone
and taking notes on your blackberry as you're wearing your headset, waiting
for someone to call. what i'm afraid of is that billy joe down in
never-hear-of-it, nebraska is living his life on a farm and has found
happiness while ben chang is consistantly trying to accommodate to people's
needs whilst still searching for his own stress-free world. NOW - you tell
me though - if a man is so content in either one of those societies (fast
paced or grazin' raisin), then shouldn't he just lay on bed for the rest of
his life like an olf and die with a smile on his face?

doesn't seem likely because i believe god made us to always have a want or
a need as part of our characteristic. if that ever dies out in someone,
then that metaphor of dying out becomes literal. it's sad. we'll never
really find happiness people! things will make us happy....but to be
completely, utterly and non-needing ...well, you better wake up out of
never, neverland cause michael jackson will show you the thriller when you
least expect it.

there's your cent short of 3.

lotus notes

"that's so funny."

you ever hear someone say that without laughing? i'd like to raise my hand
and not only admit to hearing it, but also admit to demonstrating the same
gesture. sometimes you know it's funny, but it's not THAT funny that
laughter is needed, so you simply say those 3 words to parlay the thought.
it's actually a two-sided thought. 1.) depending on delivery context, it
can be somewhat condescending and sarcastic to show that something is
actually not funny at all or 2.) the joke, not being SO funny to puncture
the nerve of laughter, is still understood by the recipient to be in
humorous content and therefore gets props in this fashion for its
acknowledgement. i just wanted to bring it up to speed and let people know
that i hear what you're saying and when you tell me something is funny but
aren't laughing, it makes me ponder the thought if it's really funny or
not. i'd rather get the number 2 reason over the number 1 thought of just
saying "that's funny" because it really isn't funny and it's in everyone's
mentality to be the sarcastic son-ova-b*tch that we are. and post note
that - i am sarcastic too and yes, i too am guilty of quoting the sentence
i've begun this blog with. the end on this.

NEXT ---

"the departed" directed by martin scorsese. my name is j. reyes and i am a
marty scorsese whore. i think the man is god and even think the bad movies
have their moments of shining as well. you just have to look at it from a
different angle. anyhoo - i urge you and deeply suggest that you watch
this movie. make THIS movie stay in the top spot for longer than one month
and remind people that we still love the cinema in theaters and that dvd's
and home entertainment systems shouldn't take away our film experience.
this is by far the best movie i've seen in a theater in a LONG, LONG time
and not to be biased because i've admitted to being a scorsese fan, but to
be objective and a professional film snob - this is seriously, by far, the
best film i've seen in probably 2 years (....only talking about theater
experiences). yes - i know it's based on a hong kong film entitled
"infernal affairs" to which i've watched and say that the storyline was
quicker and shot selections were faster, but marty stretches it out more
and adds his personal twist to his version. i've watched and studied this
man direct for so long that you can tell his style. the simple side swing,
mixed with a rock song from the 70's or 80's with quick shot selections.

i WILL say this in negative light - to show that i'm still thinking outside
of the whore box - is he making cinema too easy for the younger folk with
his simple symbolism? there are a few moments that stick out which make it
too easy to be a film student. per se the guy's a rat, you say he's a rat,
and SO let's show a rat on the screen. this guy's the bad guy, he's like
the devil, SO let's make him look like a devil by using red and
demonstrating a sense of evil. what's up with that?

BUT i still loved it. 3 hours completely unwasted and no chance of sleepy
eye. nothing dragged, nothing was drawn out, and nothing was completely
over embellished. WELL....let me take that last one back. certain things
were embellished but i think in a light where it was overdone to make a
statement to the viewer. in case you know things like that or not......if
not, don't worry about it and just go about enjoying your movie experience
with your date. ANYHOO - go watch this movie NOW!

the end.

an avon calendar

last night I was tortured by my aunts to watch Dancing with the Stars. not
a fan of reality television and only watch it when being forced to by other
people in the room (...usually free food will get me in these situations),
I was mesmorized at how the format is just like American Idol but for
dancing. And this is why American Idol is one of the better reality
television shows, along with Survivor and Dancing with the Stars - because
it's really a higher scale of a game show and not more of an edited formula
to create over embellished drama. that's why i'm not a fan of real world
or big brothers....however, it can get too far when it gets too cheesy,
like the bachleor or joe schmoe, etc., etc. AND yes, those other reality
t.v. show game show type deals can get terrible too - just look at anything
on MTV. however, american idol, dancing w/the stars, and survivor....i
guess they've hit some sort of formula to know how to entice the audience
and keep them coming back for more.

ANYHOO - just watching it last night i already know who won. a.c. slater's
got it in the bag. no fair. the kid use to be on kids incorporated, which
was a song and dance show for children. and then he was on saved by the
bell doing all the dance moves and shiet. gimmie a break. he's already a
dancer by nature. the only other person i think that could beat him is
emmit smith and that's because he was one of the greatest running backs to
ever play the game. he's got the fancy footwork. my only question is -
how can you leave ali landry dude? you're a dumbass.

scorsese's new flick is based on a hong kong film. i'm watching it before
i dip into The Departed. i think i'm going to build a scorsese collection.
amazon used section is calling my name. i love it. goodfellas collector's
edition - here i come!

my birthday is on monday....old.....

orange spice tea

weather does not permit me the freedom to choose on my exercise preference.
i like to run. i started running about a year ago and can now bust out 5
miles without thinking any different about it. the only thing that stops
me from consistently maintaining that adrenaline rush is the fact that
outdoor weather is retarded. it's the extremity of hots and colds that i
know chicago to be. ever since i've moved here, this midwest machine of
wierd weather has placed a never ending question mark for anyone that's
ever asked me "how's the weather like out there?" unless i'm outside, i
recommend just going to weather.com and finding out yourself. use 60645
and you'll know what's going on.

moving right along - i FINALLY watched motorcycle diaries. i must say that
there were parts in the movie that completely invigorated me to just go
outside and drive without turning back. i'd love to explore this vast
nation i'm on and make it all that it's worth. everyone is always saying,
"i'd love to travel over seas to [insert your own european dream]."
whereas i'm on the contrary and would like to find all the little nooks and
cranies that you don't know america has to offer. i'm no patriotic son
o'va b*tch, but what i am is someone that adds more value to what it's
worth. the south, east/west, and even the midwest -- all the states
located in these geographical locations of the nation have their own
personal flavor and i'm sorry - but truthfully, being a tourist and just
looking at photographic, travel channel, commercialized memories does NOT
enculture you to know better of the people. because honestly, the PEOPLE
is what makes a town the town. there are different cultural standards and
etiquettes that you just don't know exist. i'm from rutgers university and
there's even a rutgers form of etiquette or knowledge. not everyone knows
what a fat cat is, or that rutgers played the 1st collegiate football game,
or that lauryn hill went to rutgers-newark, or that kristen davis use to
perform at the george street playhouse, or that jonald reyes learned cinema
studies there. SEE!

every place has that certain j'ou no say qua.....

i'm getting older as i type....

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my eyes have opened up to charles bukowski. if you don't know - i suggest
you do because i think i've found my supernova. this man will release my
weariness of a writer's block. already reading 2 excerpts online makes me
want to write for an eternity.

that's all i need to say.

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do you think the crocodile hunter deserved it? i was watching msnbc last
night and they had a debate on the crocodile hunter getting killed. first
off, i personally don't think people deserve to die unless they have mental
issues where they've killed off heads, but sometimes you have to pay the
piper when you play with fire. SO - i can see the debate. one guy was
saying that he had it coming to him cause he provoked the stingray. the
other was sayin that he's a professional and that something got f*cked up
in the way it was done. i personally think that the crocodile hunter's got
a frickin huge set of cajones. i don't think he deserves to die and wish
he hadn't because he helped make the animal planet channel what it is
today.....but he was playing with a huge fire, so to do something as
dangerous as he was for so long....well, something was bound to happen.....

ANYHOO - i don't watch reality television cause i'm a writer at heart. at
least i try not to which is difficult in our world today cause everything
is reality television. ACTUALLY - good t.v. is back again with the one
hour drama shows (lost, 24, etc.) but the #1 show is still american idol.
so you do the math. anyway, the point is that tonight is the debut of the
new season of Survivor. my friend, jenny, from glenview, IL is part of the
Asian-American tribe. isn't that a coincident? she gets on a highly
acclaimed reality show that provoking the racial card and i'm doing a
documentary on the low impact of asian americans in mainstream culture.
HOWEVER, i don't know if i should interview her. of course she's a fine
fit to the doc, but she's also my friend and i haven't put too much air
time of any of my other friends in the movie. i don't
know....whatever....i'll figure it out later.....

right now, i'd just like to wish her luck and hope she does well. good
luck jenny! watch survivor guys and support her instead of your own race!
haha!

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the days of chilly and nippy weather are up and about in the windy city.
summer days have already been missed as tempertures level off around the 60
degree mark. autumn returns and my allergies have made me not breathe
again. ugh....

yesterday i watched that 9/11 documentary on cbs. (no, not the harvey
keitel movie on abc.) this was completely and utterly unreal! it's the
one with the french filmmakers who were originally documenting what it was
like to be a new york firefighter and what the newbies go through. i was
explaining to my coworker of how you knew what happen "that day" and how
each part of the documentary was a jaw dropping, "oh shiet" moment. like
you were waiting for when each plane would hit. AND no matter how many
times i've seen the footage - it's always so unbelievable. always, always,
always......

so this is for nine-eleven! today is patriot's day (which makes me think
of when this exactly became a named day...???). wave a flag and have some
pride!